note 33

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they will notice and will be bothered. If they don't, you know where you stand.

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In this life, whatever you do, you will never please everyone. Remember, if you weren't worth anything, they wouldn't bother.

It was a wake up call. To found out that the closes people around you are the ones that you have to be extra careful with. They may be nice, yet they might also be the ones who were secretly talking about you behind your back. I’m guessing that I should actually create a list of the people whom I can truly trust. Those who WILL NOT be going around telling others what I've shared with them. This is why I do not have a best-friend, because no one can actually be trusted. I have trust issues, yes I really do. I tend to doubt people, based on my past experience. I've come across many kinds of people, all sorts of attitudes and characteristic. These few I’m talking about are just additional to the list that I've created a long time ago.

P/s: Thank you for revealing your true colors and make me realize who you really are.

note 31

I couldn't sleep, whilst:

Fallen asleep at school
Yes, couple of times.

Broken someone’s heart
Been there, done that. Hoho.

Fell off your chair
yes, in front of the whole class. I know I'm clumsy.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call
Neah, I'll make sure calls where made before bedtime..

Saved e-mails
Only the important one.

What's your room like
Erk, a bujang type of bedroom. If you understand what I meant by bujang.

What’s right beside you
My roommate fast asleep.

Do you...


..believe in love at first sight
No, I don't.

..like picnics
Depending on who were involve.


Today..


..did you talk to someone you like
Talk to someone I like? Well, I like everyone that I've been talking to...

Who do you really hate
Stabbers, Haters, Stalkers.

Do you like your handwriting
It's ugly, so yes I do. What do you care?

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in
Mine. and mine. and and mine.

Are you a friendly person
Most probably.

Do you have any pets
Not really, but I do have a half-human half-cat, does it count?

Do you sleep with the TV on
Never, I save the energy.

What are you doing right now
This survey that is not even berfaedah obviously.

Can you handle the truth
Not really, but depending on from whom is it coming from and what is it about.

Are you closer to your mother or father
My share a lot with my mom, yet I'm the only one among my siblings who gets 'child-father' quality time.

Do you eat healthy
Not in particular.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex
Which ex? I don't think so.

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to
That would be my one and only Meow. Usually, shes the one that I turn to when things goes wrong.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time
When in class I'm loud. When with friends I am louder.

Are you confident
Yes, at times.

5 of my bad habits:
-Not fulfilling the religious stuff.

-Lied to my parents.

-Choose not to voice out things in my head.

-I rather just agree on stuff rather than arguing.

-I get confuse/blur easily.


5 places i've lived in:
-Kota Bharu

-Singapore

-Bangsar

-Currently Shah Alam.

8 songs i currently listening over and over again
-You Don't Love Me / The Kooks

-Black Amplifier/ The S.I.G.I.T

-This Ain't Goodbye / Train

-Here Without You / 3 Doors Down

-The Scientist / Coldplay

-The Only Exception / Paramore

-I Know, I Know, I Know / Tagen and Sara

-Calculation Theme / Metric

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I don't regret my past, I just regret the time I've wasted with the wrong people.

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Lily

We've been through a lot of hardship. Almost 4 years of relationship and I still love you like I always do. I miss you darl. Sorry for doing that, I've to do what's best for the both of us. You said, "things happen for a reason" and I'm sure it does. I promise you that I'll never forget these words: Please, I want to see your smile, and hear your laugh. Don't show me that sad face anymore. You can keep my word.

p/s: I love you still, even after what had happened.

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Splendid!

Spend half the day in the library, looking for related journals that can be useful for my research. Luck was not on my side today, so I failed to get any journals related to the topic I'm writing on. I was with Paan again. We had a late lunch after that. Well, not exactly lunch since it was 3 in the afternoon.

After lunch I went off for a re-treat. I went to one of my favorite place to has some alone time. The fresh air, beautiful view, sounds of the wind. Just what I needed, to clear my mind-up. When everything else fails, nature is the best answer.

Out for dinner with Harsh just now, at Pelita. It was nice to be able to spend some quality time with her, I haven't met her for months. We talked, we ate ice-cream, we walked all around Telawi. Thank you so much for the dinner! Love you sayang!

What you need in life, is those people whom cared for you as much as you cared for them!

Although I can count mine with one hand, they are my treasure.

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Just another memory to be remembered.

This week was super fun! I really had a great time with some awesome people. If these continue, I'll be one of the happiest person in the entire world :D

The list of events:

Tuesday:

Had a blasting birthday celebration for Ecah at Dataran Shah Alam. Together with a prank on the birthday girl. We were there till 3am. Playing snap and true or dare. It was a laughing moment.

Thursday:

A public holiday, Thaipusam! I had a lunch-date with Sizu and Amira. It's been awhile since I last hang-out with these two. After that, went off to watch The Tourist with Nazeera and Hannan. Dinner was awesome, had a very good laugh at Barra with Am, Adik, Hanna, Amyra, and also Pain.

Friday:

Me and Paan when to meet up with our supervisor, and unfortunately the meeting ended later that what we expected. So after the meeting we decided to go and watch a movie. This time is was, Paranormal Activity 2. We even tried Archery! It was totally amazing! Need to try that again, next time!

Well, that wrap up the whole week, for now... Yet tomorrow, while everyone else will be going out and having fun. I guess, I'm stuck in the library doing a research.

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"Pain and death are part of life.

To reject them is to reject life itself."

Listening to: Coldplay - The Scientist.

p/s: You are like Chipsmore!

note 25

While listening to: Always Where I Need To Be, The Kooks.

note 24

Found this on tumblr:

11th January 2011. Nice date!

And, and, someone turned 21 today.

Happy Birthday to my Meow.

[Happy 9th! Since, you still think that you're still a kid :D]

I love you much!

Btw, let's have dinner or something when you're free. My treat, you pick a place aite?

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The only people you need in your life is the one that need you in theirs.

Don't make someone a priority if they only make you an option!

Note: Still high on medication. Come to think of it, when was the last time I fall sick??

note 22

Thursday/6 Jan 2011.

Woke up by 7 due to the extreme weather. Took a bath under the icing cold shower. Got wet in the heavy rain from the car park to class. Found out the both my morning classes were canceled. The right words would be : Lecturer was not around. Skipped the evening class, and went home after having lunch with Meow and Nazeera. Chill out with Nazeera and Hannan at home. My whole body is still in pain, muscle pain. I have a feeling I might caught a fever soon.

Friday/ 7 Jan 2011.

I woke up this morning with a migraine. Thanks, to the cold weather yesterday. Slept very early last night. Super early. Drove back to Bangsar after class with Nazeera. Drop her off at KL Sentral and head straight home. After lunch, slept for almost 4 hours. Woke up with bad headache again. Currently: Just swallow an aspirin. Fever :(

note 21

Broken once.